I felt like a Stranger All Alone in Church
I could almost see the glory. The front two rows of the church, filled with
wheelchair and mobility impaired people.
It was glorious.
My favorite spot in the church is to sit/wheel into the
back. Why? It is symbolic? Blacks where always asked to occupy the back
rows. Also, the people whom tend to
occupy the back rows are the homeless and the poor, because, they do not want
everybody to see them. They want to be
comfortable in church, and, if they sit in the front, then they will get the
nasty looks and the whispers.
Yes. I felt
alone. I felt alone because again, I was
the only wheelchair in the church.
I miss and yearn. I
miss and yearn New York, and the disabled ministries that used to come the
Belsky House to worship with all the “cripples”. It was glorious beyond belief. To hear people whom could hardly talk worship
and sing to God. Glory beyond
comparison.
And now, March 2016, I am faced with the same scenario,
being alone in church. Wow. The dread.
Church has become, many of them, a place for the young
people only. You do not see the elders
much in the church. Grandma coming in to
lead a worship and praise song. Services
begin at 8 PM in many church, but you do not see the opening at 7 PM and people
coming in and immediately getting on their knees to pray and thank God. It is the new style of church, and, I hate
it. Where is the popcorn? Those people whom used to pop up and give
their testimony during praise and worship.
It is gone “Deary”.
Jesus and his ministry, he went out to get the
disabled. He went out and healed the
sick and raised the dead. Just read the
scriptures, it is there. Really. But, very few churches have church vans, less
handicapped wheelchair vans, to “Bring them” and “call them” to worship the
almighty.
I say this in dedication in part to Esther Flores. The missionary whom came back for a few
month, from Peten Guatamala, and shared with me what I term is “Missionary Post
Traumatic Stress”. Abroad, the people
whom have nothing appreciate all you give them and worship God thereby. She saw the orphans and children in need, and
said, “I want to adopt all of them”. She
said, “You do not understand Ray, they are locked up and outcast of society”. There, for sure, if you are disabled you are “warehoused”
and considered nothing. The same
dedication is to Jennifer Frye, whom’s son sees the same thing, and want to
stay abroad in Honduras. He did not want
to come back. He saw the same needy
children. I am wondering when the
churches in the US are going to see the same needy people, the disabled, in all
their glory. This is why I pray; This is
why I hurt.