Miracles n Friends n Pills

Miracles n Friends n Pills

It is hard, but it reminds me of the golden years.  The years when I first Got saved and did not know what I was “was not doing”. 

I went up to a couple fighting by the subway stairs hoping to intervene and pray for them.

That was a big mistake, but I was on a mission.   I was saved.  I left my bible by the stairs in the midst of the bars so that someone else would “get the Word”;  all the while It was actually littering and I had loved that bible, duh.

So, when I was part of a men’s group recently, and the leader professed the “era of healing is Gone”, wow, I just started to reminisce.   I remembered the crazy days.  God has done too much for me, too many miracles since being saved to even remotely consider what he was saying. 

Really, no more miracles.  The Word is already spread and no longer needed is miracles, he said; wow.

I testified of the miracles abroad seen by missions workers. 

I testified about the fact that here in the US, we do not pray first.  We go to the doctor, and, his prognosis and medicine is our “healing” and “miracles”.  Not so, we need to pray first.

Depression, a pill

Anxiety, a pill

Sleeplessness, a pill

Unknown effects, a pill

Mind-altering effects, a pill

Prescription highs, a pill

ADD, a pill

The drugs are safe, a pill

The drugs cause cancer, a pill

The drugs cause and cure depression, insanity, a pill.

The drugs cure and cause suicidal thoughts, a pill

No prayer, no rest, no supports, but a pill

No reconciling, no forgiving, but a pill

Divorce, a pill; fornication, a pill; adultery, a pill. 

I talked to my daughter to avoid those pills.

A recent problem in her school caused the making of many enemies. 

I told her that defending myself is not glorious.

Making an enemy is not glorious. 

The scenario was not glorious, and, I am not taking a pill

But, the educators and physicians say take a pill.  They do not say make friends and create a support network.  Provide the services for a child; their answer is no, but, give them a pill and it will be better.  Huh?

Demons do not exist anymore, a pill does.

Hate does not exist anymore, a pill.

The North American thing is to take a pill, get high, it will be alright.

If in Utah and Alaska, it might be add some porn to the mix, that is what the preacher said.  His state is filled with porn, Utah, and ripe for missions, no pill. 

Demons are real and love pills.  Altering your mind and committing suicide is good, they say.

Make enemies is good they so, and do not reconcile.  That is not good.  And, I hope that my kids get the message that defending oneself is different from attacking and making enemies. 

Any animal will protect its young.  A parent will, in most cases, defend their children even onto death.

They will defend for days, years, hours, minutes, months on end.  I brought that child into this world.  God charged me to defend, raise, and protect my child. 

Demons are real.  They accuse you at night, They accuse you at all times.  They cause depression, they cause psychosis.  The only answer is prayer and a turning to God. 

I dedicate this to the Men. 

I dedicate this to my enemies. 

It was not my choice to make an enemy. 

The Lord’s will be done, and I will hope and pray fo the making of friends continuously.

Miracles are real and still happen.  God Bless.  

Security at Zebulon GT Magnet Middle School and WCPSS

I talked with my daughter while at the grave.  She told me that people sneak out of the school to talk to Diamond.  Her name is still not to be mentioned in school according to the administration, she said.  So, the kids sneak out to talk to Diamond. No memorial still.  No memorial ever.  You can write about her though.  Where does that go?

They do it in the morning and during class transition times.  They sneak out through the blind spot.  The blind spot of the cameras in the gym.  They go through the weak and broken fence and just lift it up and continue undetected off school property. It happens not just during the morning.  All the kids know the weak spot.  

She cried, "We still cannot talk about Diamond".  We came there to remember her.  I came there to thank God for the little progress I saw at the school. 

The WCPSS phenomenon is this.  They have a secure safe system, to track whom signs kids in and out of school.  I have seen at ZMS some Questionable people sign out children from school.  I used the system and 90% of the time the camera does not have a picture of me.  Nobody, in the past 8 years ever asked me for ID when signing out a child at ZMS or any WCPSS school.  So, as long as you know the name of a designated person on the approved list, you can check out any student at anytime.  

Let us run this scenario to its course.  I want to cut class.  I go to the office or from my classroom, call my cousin and my boyfriend/girlfriend/gang member, and have them come sign me out.  Then, at the end of the day I board the bus home or go to carpool.  Again, I have seen questionable people, in my mind, that definitively did not look like a parent.  

Let us continue, I am in class, and I ask to call my parent.  The teacher does not dial the number for me, and I am not required to go to the front desk and have them call for me.  So, I can call anyone, again, a boyfriend, girlfriend, or gang member, etc, and have them come pick me up.  The camera system is not designed so that front desk staff can verify there is a picture taken, and, at no time is ID required.  NO VERIFICATION.  So, here comes the person to check me out,  Only two weeks ago was I stopped by the front desk and required to come into the office to check my daughter out.  But, more importantly, kids can call ANYBODY from ANYWHERE in the school using school telephones.  I get pissed because when I miss a call and call the school back, they answer "We do not know who called you, but, we will transfer your call to your child's classroom or call her to the office to verify it was her."  I am not sure how teachers can teach when children are on the phones in the classroom?  Hum

I say this because it is scary to know kids know the security weaknesses.  Kids can call whomever at anytime during the day.  No tracking.  No dialing for them.  No STRANGER DANGER.  No checking the authorized people list.  NO PICTURE OF ME 90% of the time on the secure safe system, and, receptionist cannot check such.   She said she never left school grounds, but most of her friends do it on the regular.

She said, :"they sneak out to talk to Diamond".  They use the blindspot and the door in the gym.  The weak part of the field fence.  Is it true, I ask and need to know?  It is true, I have seen people come and sign out and NO ID REQUIRED.  God Bless. 

Is My Living in Vain

Is My Living in Vain.

It happened, after two years.  Two years that my daughter attends Zebulon Middle School, in Zebulon North Carolina. 

I had to sign her in to school after taking her to a dental appointment. 

Two years where my daughter could come in at anytime and sign herself in without any proof of having been at the clinic/hospital, etc.  NO PARENT REQUIRED. 

I talked with my daughter and asked what happened.  She said they caught students hanging around the building and not going to class and then coming in and saying they were dropped off by a parent because of a doctor appointment, meanwhile, the camera showed them not being dropped off but rather just walking around school buildings.  Scary in that it took two years for the school administrators to WAKE UP and SMELL THE COFFEE.  Wow. 

I sat in the office at times and seen it happened along with other things.  One controversy is the Dr. Note is not tracked by the main office.  “Show the note to your teacher”, they are instructed to do.  That is a stark difference in that in other schools, an administrator is assigned in the main office to scrutinize those “notes” and track lateness and attendance; not so at ZMS, but this is progress. 

In elation and memorial, I visited the grave of Diamond Selver shortly after. Why? Because I feel like my efforts to avoid another death at the school is not in vain.  There is some semblance of change. 

Sometimes, you may feel like you will never see change, and your efforts are in vain.  But, change occurred, however limited, however minimal, some parent complained about their child not attending school.  Someone complained about how the school manages the children in their care.  Something was done. 

I am thankful, and that is why I visited her grave.  It was to thank God and remember her and to feel strengthened in my efforts to make sure not another child dies or tries to die at ZMS.