La Muerte de Mi Gente

 Que significa todo esto?

Estuve hablando por teléfono con mi primo hoy. "Escuchas cosas" y, a menudo [necesito dos testigos para verificar], no estoy seguro de si es la realidad.

Qué significa eso? Cosas como "Carolina del Norte fue devastada por un huracán", y miro hacia afuera y nada más que algunas nubes y mucho sol.

Los informes han sido numerosos desde Puerto Rico. Sin comida. Ninguna energía [no hay luz, no hay poder]. Las tiendas abren por dos horas, y luego cierran y te vas sin las necesidades básicas. Gente muriendo y pidiendo comida en las calles.

Ese fue un informe.
Entonces hoy, una corroboración de eso. Un patriarca de la familia informó, "sí, no comida", PERO, "estaba cultivando mis propios cultivos [comdia]". Genial, dices, en un ambiente tropical creces y tienes tu propia comida [se me fue la comida con un viento]. No, Llegó la tormenta y arrancó todas las cosechas. Y la gente está tan hambrienta que si hubieras podido cultivar tu propia comida, la gente vendría y la robaría en medio de la noche. Están tan hambrientos y sin recursos. Esto es Puerto Rico.

Entonces, el presidente L. B. Johnson Nixon dice "vendamos Puerto Rico" y luego trata de cambiarlo por Groenlandia o Islandia. Guau. Esto después de que asumió la presidencia por primera vez, más de 5000 personas murieron, porque los recursos y la ayuda fueron retenidos deliberadamente.
Esta es mi gente muriendo y sufriendo. Demonios, el informe de hoy fue, "no tienen energía", así que si recibes una llamada, dura menos de 5 minutos debido a que se está agotando la energía. Guau. Sin comida y devastación.

Luego, hoy, voy a comprar una lavadora, la mía se rompió y, según Best Buy, “el 80 por ciento de lo que hay en el piso no está disponible porque nuestras cosas provienen de China y Corea”. Agradable. Modelos de piso y sin merchandising. De Verdad.

Antes de cortar el suministro, asegúrese de "tener lo que necesita" para compensar la diferencia. Elija una pelea con alguien y luego "estar sin" porque no planeó y "prepárese". Ese es un niño, no un adulto maduro.

COVID, otro desastre en sí mismo. No me dejes entrar en eso.

Su historial está probado. La gente está muriendo. Tu eres el líder. Es deliberado.

 What does it all mean?

 Was on the phone with my cousin today.  You “hear stuff” and often are not certain if it is reality.

What does that mean?  Things like “North Carolina was devastated by a Hurricane”, and I look outside and nothing but a few clouds and a lot of sunshine. 

The reports have been numerous from Puerto Rico. No food.  No power. Stores opening for two hours, and then closing and you go without basic necessities.  People dying and begging for food in the streets. 

That was one report. 

Then today, a corroboration of that.  A patriarch of the family reported, “yes no food”, BUT, “I was growing my own crops”.  Great you say, in a tropical environment you grow and have your own food.  Nope.  The storm came and uprooted all the crops.  And, the people so hungry that if you would have been able to grow your own food, people would come and steal it in the middle of the night.  They are so hungry and without resources.  This is Puerto Rico.

So, you have President L. B. Johnson Nixon saying “let’s sell Puerto Rico”, and, then tries to trade it for Greenland or Iceland.  Wow.  This after when he first became President over 5000 people died, because resources and help were deliberately withheld. 

These are my people dying and suffering.  Hell, the report today was, “they have no power” so if you get a call through, it last less than 5 minutes due to power running out.  Wow.  No food and devastation. 

Then today, I go to buy a washing machine, mine broke, and, Best Buy reports “80 percent of what is on the floor is unavailable because our stuff comes from China and Korea”.  Nice.  Floor models and no merchandize.  Really. 

Before you cut off supply, you make sure “you have what you need” to make up the difference.  Pick a fight with someone and then “be without” because you did not plan and “get ready”.  That is a kid not a mature adult. 

COVID, another disaster all by itself.  Let me not go into that. 

Your record is proven.  People are dying.  You are the leader.  It is deliberate.

Father's day and racism took my dad Happy F'day to ALL

Reflections:

Reflections on my child hood.

Reflections on Race. 

I do not remember Father’s Day growing up.  I do not remember ever getting excited and preparing something for my dad.  He was not there. 

He was not there, Because:

He was not there because the police sliced his head open.

I remember looking at the large c’ shaped scare on his head, bald head, in the Assisted Living Home.

They were called to the home supposedly, domestic violence, he was drunk. 

Cracked his head with a police stick. 

The provider of five, the bread winner and the home provide became an invalid, TBI/PTSD.

We lost our dad to NYPD.  Five children lost a home maker and way maker. 

That was the penalty for getting drunk.  (Drunk due to indiscretion by the other one.)

I tried to remember today,  I looked for good memories, and found none during my childhood.

Adult memories yes, after I took custody of him.  Memories while I write a letter on Father’s Day to address a wrongful death.  Adult memories when we took grandpa (my dad) to eat every Father’s Day.

Adult memories of tormenting my grandpa (father’s side) unjustly before his death, and, having met grandpa (on mom’s side), before his death, as mean as he was, at the fate of a railroad train. 

Regardless of your experience, whether positive or negative, pray for forgiveness if you harbor hate, but also pray for those without dad’s and whom suffered not so glorious childhoods.  Pray also for the Mom’s whom pulled double duties as they suffered the losses also of that provider, for whatever the reason, good or bad, they stepped up to the plate, and so too did others. 

God Bless. Happy Father’s Day. 

Reflexiones:

Reflexiones sobre la capucha de mi hijo.

Reflexiones sobre la raza.

No recuerdo el día del padre mientras crecía. No recuerdo haberme emocionado y preparado algo para mi papá. Él no estaba allí.

Él no estaba allí, porque, PORQUE:

No estaba allí porque la policía le abrió la cabeza.

Recuerdo haber visto el gran susto (la herida, la marca) en forma de c en su cabeza, calva, en el Hogar de Vida Asistida.

Fueron llamados a la casa supuestamente, violencia doméstica, estaba borracho.

Se partió la cabeza con un palo de policía.

El proveedor de cinco, el ganador del pan y el hogar se convirtieron en un TBI / PTSD ahora y para siempre incapacitado.

Perdimos a nuestro padre por la policía de Nueva York. Cinco niños perdieron un ama de casa y un fabricante de caminos, pan y viviendo ahora era la responsabilidad del gobierno.

Esa fue la pena por emborracharse. (Borracho debido a la indiscreción del otra).

Traté de recordar hoy, busqué buenos recuerdos y no encontré ninguno durante mi infancia.

Recuerdos de adultos sí, después de que me hice cargo de él. Recuerdos mientras escribo una carta el Día del Padre para abordar una muerte injusta. Recuerdos de adultos cuando llevamos al abuelo (mi papá) a comer todos los días del padre.

Recuerdos adultos de haber atormentado a mi abuelo (del lado del padre) injustamente antes de su muerte, y de haber conocido al abuelo (del lado de la madre), antes de su muerte, tan cruel como él, en el destino de un tren de ferrocarril.

Independientemente de tu experiencia, ya sea positiva o negativa, reza por el perdón si albergas odio, pero también reza por aquellos sin el padre y que sufrieron una infancia no tan gloriosa. Ore también por las madres que cumplieron con el doble de los deberes, ya que sufrieron las pérdidas también de ese proveedor, por cualquier razón, buena o mala, dieron un paso al frente, y también lo hicieron otros.

Dios bendiga. Feliz Día del Padre.

Special Needs :Leadership

Why President L. B J. Nixon Trump?

LBJ was known for involving us in the Unpopular War.  That war was Vietnam where thousand of US soldiers died.  It was the unpopular war that could have been avoided.   So too is the current War, the Pandemic.  Here in the US we could have mitigated more deaths, if all the parties involved, too the war more seriously. 

Why Nixon?  Nixon, the Liar and the Criminal President.  He was one whom did “anything he needed to do” to win or stay in office, and, he lost that. 

I had a hard time last night while on my bed.  I could not forward or share the pic, like Lysol IV, Clorox bathes. Etc.  I knew they were coming.  I saw the press brief.  But, my reaction was pity.  Pity in that we have LBJ Nixon and that showed himself as special needs.  He really believed what he was saying to be true and possible. 

I dedicate myself each day to see two press briefing.  One from New York, and one from Our Beloved.  My hopes is that one day our beloved will from now on use a press person to deliver his messages.  I hate the fact that our beloved feels the need to guide every press conference, and, now, lately, use them as political commercials. 

I felt so bad when the pics came out, knowing they were coming.  Some people will take him literally.  They will try to inject themselves with Clorox and Lysol, that is the sad fact. 

I was talking to my daughter, and told her, I saw the political cartoons, and started to laugh, but was overwhelmed by pity.  He really is special needs, and, most of those around him present as such. 

Just look at Dr. Fallacy.  He was asked a couple of days ago if the virus was transmitted to animals through human, knowing confined animals got it in zoo’s, his response was he was with the academics and they were writing scholarly work to prove that is not possible.  Wow, special needs. 

That leads to the recent conversation with my daughter.  I told her I am a certified educated idiot.  As soon as I got my degree, I answered such.  And the rational is a lot of people have degrees, and they are just about as stupid as certain mammals that eat bananas.

I am sorry and am finding it time to pray like never before for President LBJ N T.  And for his counsel and all those other people that lead our country.  This marks the time in the bible, the Holy Bible, where everybody did what they think is right in their eyes.

In those days Israel had no king; all the people did whatever seemed right in their own eyes. (Judges 21:25)

This seems like the Lot of the US.  A place ripe to be conquered and without leadership, on all levels. 

The Origins of Corona

The WHat ifs. What if the US was working on BIological Weapons (BW)? What if one administration bans such, and the next embraces such, all knowing full well the underlying accusation of covert BW operations

Biological weapons programs can be easily concealed and need not require large numbers of personnel or large-scale physical plants. For instance, a clandestine weapons program can be hidden inside a perfectly legal vaccine-production facility or pharmaceutical plant. Weapons laboratories disguised in this way would give off few unique “signatures,” or telltale signs that illicit activity is taking place.

– By 2015, Dr. Ralph Baric and his team at UNC were conducting research that was met with an enormous amount of concern, they successfully created a “chimeric, SARS-like virus” by altering the viral genome of a Chinese bat coronavirus’s spike-protein genes – sequences that code for the spikes that poke out from surface of viruses and allow them to unlock entry into hosts, in this case making the bio-engineered coronavirus incredibly contagious. This research raised eyebrows since it was clearly dual-use gain-of-function research, a practice banned in America from 2014 until December 2017 when NIH lifted the ban, specifically to allow research on this sort of virus. Looking at UNC’s gain-of-function research on coronavirus spike-proteins, which received its funding just before the ban was implemented and was only allowed to go forward following a special review, a virologist with the Louis Pasteur Institute of Paris warned: “If the [new] virus escaped, nobody could predict the trajectory.”

Obama banned research via Baric, 2017, the Ban was lifted by present administration.

https://harvardtothebighouse.com/2020/01/31/logistical-and-technical-analysis-of-the-origins-of-the-wuhan-coronavirus-2019-ncov/

https://www.nih.gov/about-nih/who-we-are/nih-director/statements/nih-lifts-funding-pause-gain-function-research

https://www.britannica.com/event/Biological-Weapons-Convention

Rona Censorship

First Time I Experienced Censorship

What does that mean?  On a certain network, like MySpace, it happened.

I posted a link to a Youtube video, and, the link was censored.  A big error sign showed up one time. 

A second time, and/or third, it said the content was private to an individual user, but I know the video in question was public. 

So, let us say, three countries get together,  the countries are 1. Canada Dry, United Klingdon, United Grapes of America, and CCP Chi-Nuh-Rona.  And, supposed these three countries were doing research, genetic research, on virus’.  Suppose, the United Grapes and Klingdon decided to give a sample of a horrendous virus, to study of course, Chi-Nuh-Rona.  However, they knew, and were warned, the virus needed to be destroyed, because it was too deadly.  They knew Chi-Nuh-Rona had bad labs in a highly dense and populated urban area.  And, the virus was “accidentally” release, or, carelessly release; for all the world to suffer. 

Such is the true story told in a youtube video.  The first time in over 10 years I experienced a social network censoring.  The link to the video is herein contained, and cannot be posted on a certain social network.  You owe it to yourself to check it out.  Informative reporting here.  God Bless.

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https://youtu.be/4kPIMEncC_M
Censorship in the US


The link below has been censored more than 10 times


Pandemic Link to Origins of the Corona

I am Ready Not Suicidal

I am Ready to Go

This was the conversation with my daughter.  Then again, we sat at the eatery and communicated to my mom.  My mom said, “Don’t say that …… that is serious …….. God is going to punish you”.

I am ready, that was said before the Corona.  It was said with reference to the ongoing medical. 

I take pills just to keep me going, most of it just Vitamin C.  This body cannot function without that as a minimum.  It keeps the infections down. It keeps the blood flowing in that bad leg.  Chronic infections in my mouth.

The poor cannot afford dental insurance.  Hence, for the past 10 years, “no dentist for you”.  That means a rotten mouth and chipped teeth.  So, I take the C to avoid an abscess.  Oh, it gets swollen in there alright, outright potty mouth.  Hence, the education to get a job to keep my mouth up is not happening. 

I think that is why corona seems to hit me early.  I am bent over so I am prone to bronchial problems already.  That with fighting infections from a potty mouth, and a purple leg, is not a good combination. 

I asked my mom, and friends at times, I am ready, you ready to go with me.  I am tired.  Fighting all my life with this body.  The non-pooping wonder.  I am full of shit, literally.  So, I said it in response to my mom’s repeated plea for a colon examination.  If I have colon cancer, I do not want to know, I would not go for the treatment.  I am ready to go.

I said this to my friend, my beloved, my Liz.  She said, “you have to be there for your kids.”  Nuh, I have done enough.  They had 13 to 15 years of a father, I had none.  My father was an envelope, red-white-and-blue, with aluminum foil and $10.00 therein every once in a while.  That was pops.

You have to be there for their wedding and kids and until they are 18.  Nope, I am sure they will be okay.  I am good.  I asked Liz, you ready to go with me. 

Just look at the medical sciences, everything is a pill, and everything is a complication from a pill.  I am “pilled out”.  The devastation was my dog and my dad.  Muscle mass Gone.  Lord will things will change. 

Are you ready is the question?  One cough, one sneeze, it can take you out.  I am happy I can say I am ready to go, but expect more out of life, but am ready.  It is cool to be such.  Tired of the fight in the flesh.  Desires, tug of war.  Just the body. 

Told my kids, I have struggled all my life. Like Derrick said, “you don’t know what you are talking about … you have a lot to live for [paraphrase here]”.  Yep, but he has been all his life in a good body.  I have not.  My body was “jacked up” from the get go. 

People choose sometimes.  They choose to over eat and be obese.  But, I did not have that choice.  The body was broke from the “get go”. 

My cousin said, I did not even get a chance to say good bye to my dad.  The moment can come any minute. 

My kids, if they chose God or not, it is not because I failed to take them to church.  It would be their folly or blessing, but it would be there choice, I am not to blame. 

Are you ready?  I am sorry for all those New Yorkers whom were not ready, in the blink of an eyes, a healthy loved one goes on and passes over that bridge, in days, not prolonged suffering but quickly, without time to fix their affairs.  Hence, are you ready.  Please answer yes.   

How does it Feel Now

Aaron Wallace, saw his podcast, whatever you wanted to call it.

Colonial, call to arms.

A day late and a dollar short.  I had pity on him because, he is experiencing what the elderly faced for generations in this country.  Wanted to go to church, and being stuck home.  So now, the “shoe is on the other foot”.  Now they are experiencing what the elderly have experienced for years.  That is the loneliness and isolation and the longing.  But, they are making a way, that in the past were too slack in doing.  Now, everything is being streamed, live, and in your house.  My chief complaint went unanswered in the past, but now, it is what “everybody wants”. 

He looked lonely,  He looked sad, He looked disappointed.  That is what I saw.  

The store houses, the Church, now it wants and started a pantry.  Wow.  The call for volunteers and donations.  Everyone, bring something.  I had asked, in open letters, why the churches did not have such already.  Now, it is a good idea everywhere.  So, the irony plays out.  The churches like the government were caught unprepared. 

God is good, all of the time, all of the time, God is good.  If my people, whom are called by my name, would humble themselves and pray.  That is the call, after being stricken.  Wow. 

Lock the Jews Up

It makes my sick to my stomach. Westchester is where it all started in NYC. Where they had a hint of the problem. It adjoins Rockland County NY, where Jews are highest.

The Jewish population in New York City, Long Island, and Westchester is large. 694,000 Jewish households in 2011, up from 643,000 in 2002. 1.54 million Jews in 2011, up from 1.41 million in 2002. Of all households in the area, 1 in 6 is a Jewish household.

It makes my sick to my stomach. Westchester is where it all started in NYC. Where they had a hint of the problem. It adjoins Rockland County NY, where Jews are h 1.41 million in 2002. Of all households in the area, 1 in 6 is a Jewish household.

So, the Governor, Cuomo, said today, was where the first outbreak in NY happened. Jewish communities are those that refuse to abide by social distancing and stay at home orders. THEY ARE PUTTING EVERYONE AT RISK, yet, Cuomo defends them. Killing our people and loved ones. Having weddings and services, and funerals and celebrations regardless. I am sick to my stomach.

My loved ones and friends are in NYC. And, those bastards are responsible for the death of so many. Even if you think or consider them to be the chosen one [I strongly disagree about this], remember, the chosen ones were also stricken by God for disobedience.

When you are causing the deaths of other, carelessly, with indifference, you need to be in jail, and possibly facing a death sentence for murder yourself.

https://search.yahoo.com/yhs/search?type=cr_hp_mar20_wk15_2020&param1=c2dc1d82-f7ab-4824-a5c5-6c64659e8be1_2020-04-07_cr&param2=hp_direct_mar20&param3=ngc_22.20.2.57_wk15_2020&param4=1000&p=westchester%20jewish%20population%20ny&ssdcat=321&installsource=direct&source=direct&year=2015&locale=en_us&geo=us&version=22.20.2.57&templatecat=sbu_w_1000_5039_navp_esd&schemacat=sbu_w&schemaver=1.0.0.0&olpchannel=sesd&osvers=10.0&oslocale=iso%3Ausa&oslang=iso%3Aeng&os=windows&showuninstallsurvey=1&installstatus=new&vendor=none&vendorsrc=chrome&machinelocation=us&tb=0&sw=0&3in1=0&hp=0&dsp=0&cdest=direct&cmpgn=mar20&hspart=symantec&hsimp=yhs-ext_onb&o=hp&prt=ngc&ver=3.11.3.7&tpr=111&chn=1000&guid=c2dc1d82-f7ab-4824-a5c5-6c64659e8be1&doi=2020-04-07&doa=2020-04-07&ctype=

IS THIS WHAT WHITE PEOPLE EAT A CONVO WITH MY DAUGHTER

A Conversation With My Daughter, and, The Realities with My Son

I sat down with my daughter. 

Our house is in a serious state of disrepair, it is not my desire. 

For example, the exterior needs gutters and paint and some paneling repair. 

It is hard to do so when you just have a social security check to live off of. 

I want to put new flooring down.

I want to put a new microwave in.

I want to go ahead and put a gas stove in.

I need a new roof.

The blessings.  I have a new AC unit.  I have a huge handicapped ramp that was needed.  I got some roof repair done.  Good is Good. 

So what we talked about was they are 13 and 15 years old.  They have never been to Disney World.

They have never been abroad.  They do not have a passport.

They have not been to Hawaii, the Grand Canyon, or Niagara Falls.  None of that.

We have not been to an expensive restaurant, or go once a month, no $25.00 steak dinners.

I did my part, I went ahead and got my Master’s Degree.

However, when I roll into an employer’s office, “No Job for You”. 

Hence, the nearing ¼ of a million student loan debt continues. 

I do not have fancy cars.  I cannot call the mechanic to pick it up for an oil change.  No Cadillac here, get your ass on the ground, unscrew that oil pan screw, change that filter, myself.  No calls to others, no vale service.  That is the face of racism, that is North Carolina.

Task force are popping everywhere to find out why African Americans are dying at higher rights.  Let me provide the answers this way.  Bull crapper, the task force will be white, and they are glad minorities are dying.  

God have blessed with Beloved Friends, True Believers and Doers.  So, we got a delivery of Omaha Steaks, and, the order received was over $150.00 of meats and accompaniments.   The first thing out of my son’s mouth was “that was good ……… IS THIS WHAT WHITE PEOPLE EAT”.  Yes, it is and God has blessed.

The commentary is African Americans have “poor dietary habits” and are responsible for their own problem.  Oppression is not to blame the oppressed.  If you can only afford Macaroni and Cheese, Oodles of Noodles, and Hot dogs, then you may not be at fault.  I am sure a Rib Eye steak with potatoes would be your choice, would be awesome. 

You think I went to school so I could be on Food Stamps; ANSWER, HELL TO THE NO.  RACISM IS REAL AND THE DISPROPORTIONATE DEATHS AMONG MINIORITIES. 

IF YOU ARE WHITE, ENJOY IT WHILE YOU CAN, I AM SURE MY ETERNAL REWARD WILL BE IN HEAVEN.  IF YOU ARE WHITE AND A CHRISTIAN, A DOUBLE WHAMMY, I HOPE IN HELL THERE IS A SPECIAL PLACE FOR YOU. 

What I am saying if you see the racism and death and do not step up to change it, then, you have sealed your faith, as you use your biblical justification to do so.  The Southern Baptist Convention, do you support the current deaths due to the inaction of the church and our politicians. 

God is good, as you practice social distancing.  Remember, the isolation you feel now is the same the elderly feel all the time and have felt for years.  They have been abandoned in Nursing Homes and let in isolation.  Churches are now staring food pantries and their “warehouses”.  It takes pestilence to get the church to wake up. 

2020 vision, it does not matter if you are black or white

2020 Vision

Such was the new day message.  2020 vision the pastor said. 

I did look for a watch night service.  Wanted to start the New Year in church.  That is what I did all the time in NY.  Thank God for giving me the strength to do it again.

It was an all Black church, again.  It seems like many of the “Black churches” celebrate the New Year in this manner.

The echoes of the past again.  2020 and the vision is not clear, but, the church is the same.

New Years eve, the Sunday before, was spent at the Hispanic Church.  Dismay immediately upon approach to the church.  Why?  A brand new Marble sign, for the White part of the church, Raleigh Road Baptist church. 

It was lovely.  Clean granite marble.  But, the Words thereon are only Raleigh Road Baptist Church (RRBC).  No CASA De Dios wording under RRBC.  Over five years CASA has been a part of RRBC.  But, the permanent sign leaves permanent question. 

The Divorce Care Sign was removed.  And in its place was a flimsy CASA de Dios sign.  This is found at most local churches here in NC.  If they have a Spanish Ministry, the sign for that ministry, operating out of a White church, is often small. 

2020 vision proclaimed the Black pastor, in the all Black church.  The prevalence of racial segregation in 2020 continues.  Blacks here, Whites there, Hispanics temporary occupants. 

2020, can the pastors see.  2020 does that mean, you continue your services, to your people, in a separate but equal environment. 

It does matter if you are Black or White. 

I hope that your New Years will include a dedication to diversity.  Have the black person, have the white person, have the other than black or white person over in your home.  That is the hopes.  And do not forget the cripple and elderly, have them in your home or place, etc.